Friday, February 6, 2015

The Grand Finale

Synonyms for grand finale…big finish…wrap up, summit,  pinnacle. Well, this is where we are. I began my card making blog 3 years ago. It was fun at first with lots of experimenting and artistic expression.  I spend way too much time with it, devouring every challenge and becoming excited learning about this community. Somewhere along the way it changed. The joy of the post was lost in the low of the “other” things that come with it. Trying to keep myself happy and keep the viewer happy became hard. I doubted myself and what I thought was a fabulous design. I spent hours trying to make each card interesting. Sometimes it was a knock out and sometimes a flop and I could never judge which was which. There was the roller coaster feeling of blog followers. Up one down 2, up 4 down 1. I still haven't figured it out. I must have a polarizing design aesthetic, I am not sure.  I tried to stop being so attached to the numbers...the comment numbers, the followers, the blog hits. It was difficult. That aspect of it, the competitiveness and such, took some of the joy out of it.  In my heart, despite the few negatives, I loved it. I mean,  really,  really loved making a card. That little canvas and all it's possibilities was amazing. Seeing what other people created was amazing. Winning challenges, getting on design teams, having people visit my little blog...all amazing.

During my journey, I met the greatest people I have ever known in kindness and encouragement. Real friends to me and generous beyond measure. My love for the craft kept me going and I learned that my designs were not for everyone and that was ok. My blog made me happy with stories and other topics that interested me. I became part of design teams of my dreams and reached great personal heights here with my out of the box designs which validated who I was as a designer. I was hitting my stride being known as a person who created fresh and edgy work. Unfortunately, it came at sacrifice to other things, but I didn’t see it. I wanted to make cards and it’s what I became known for, to the blog world and to my family. It was my hobby and where I sought calm, happiness, and peace. My craft supplies grew exponentially and my craft space was a place I could unwind. 

Then there was a hiccup…I moved back home to be closer to extended family in April of 2014. I took a more demanding job that I LOVE, but work more than I have since becoming a mom of four 11 years ago. I moved into a bigger home which requires more time to maintain. I began to cook more and eat more! And in the process gained 20 pounds from all the stress. My kids began school and activities and well, life got busy. There was a struggle to keep going within my heart. I kept thinking it will get better, after all, I love to create. 

But I can’t keep up anymore. I want to visit blogs and see what people are creating. I want to participate in the community which has been so good to me. I struggle to keep my hold on what I worked so hard to achieve. I miss my blog reader. The days are flying by and I just feel more and more behind. Many times I think, I will forget all the posts I missed and start anew, but my organized brain doesnt work that way. In the same way that I can't highlight a book in orange if I started highlighting in yellow, I can't forget all the posts I missed. 

So here I am, writing this post to tell you I made a Wida card for Hero Arts…hopefully you will see the fresh design and edgy look that I adore when you check it out. Layers and patterns and Hero Arts goodness with melted distress inks mixed together with a baby wipe! An experiment in creativity that was a success!  



It is with heavy heart I announce this is my last post for Hero Arts and for my personal blog as well. 
I need to walk away for a 1000 reasons. I won’t bore you with any more details. But know it comes with great pain and sorrow, as well as some relief.  I hope to still create, just not on a public platform, but quietly and will less intensity than I had before. Thank you Hero Arts, and to all the other design teams I have been on for making me feel like my out of the box ways was worthy and thanks to you all for the friendships and visits to my little place of happy.

Best,
Wida

70 comments:

  1. I will miss seeing all that you create - but I do completely understand and applaud your decision. Your heart is where it needs to be and it takes a remarkable woman to accept a change. Don't forget us out here in Colorado - we hope you'll visit and gather us all together - just for fun!

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  2. I'm going to miss seeing all those Wida cards...you will just have to bring them when you come to visit, which you will definitely be doing, RIGHT???? I know this was a hard, but also kind of an easy decision for you and I know the right one too. Love you!

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  3. I can so see where you are coming from. I don't have a blog, for all the reasons that you mentioned. I make cards I like, not just to fill other niches. Go back to doing what you like doing and enjoy it.! Very best of luck, Kate.

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  4. *hugs* My dear, sweet friend. I am proud of you - for all that you are, all that you've accomplished, all that you do... and for being brave enough to make a had decision but knowing you will find peace in your heart. I adore you and your designs, I will miss seeing your beautiful creations, but I will feel happier knowing that you are happier too. Much love always. xx

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  5. I wish you the very best in this new phase of your life. Just remember change will keep on coming and maybe it will bring you back to blogland someday.:) But what ever you do don't neglect that creativity that you have so abundantly.

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  6. I had a sneaky suspicion...
    I feel ya, kiddo. These things can suck the life outta you. The nice thing is you can always drop in and surprise the crap out of everyone when and if you ever feel like it, and then just walk away again. Or not. The pressure's GONE!
    All best, Wida. Keep that creative stream wide open, and delight the folks around you with it.

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  7. Will miss your fresh designs, Wida, but good for you "doing the right thing". Maybe you'll have time to stop and smell the roses along the way now too. When they reappear. In Ohio. Hugs.

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  8. I totally get it Wida~my ego couldn't handle the follower/non-follower game so I didn't even go there because know my feelings would fluctuate. Your designs and honesty•••awesome! Praying your life balances out peacefully hon! Blessings ~

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  9. We will miss you so much Wida, but you have made a smart decision. Big hugs and an even bigger THANK YOU to you!!

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  10. Finding balance in our lives is such a struggle sometimes. I hope you find it and are still able to enjoy this hobby. Thanks for sharing your unique designs with us. Best of luck to you!!

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  11. Ah - have to say I will totally miss seeing your beautiful cards pop up in my news feed - but so glad that you are making family and yourself a priority! Such a hard balance to keep sometimes! Wishing you all the best!

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  12. So sad to read this post --you and your creative style will be missed! The thing about stampers, is we ALL understand family does need to be a priority~ Good luck with your "life" - just remember, you will be missed here in blogland~

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  13. You are a wise woman, Wida, putting the things that really count first in your priorities. Enjoy these wonderful years as your kids grow up, and know you can always come back to all of this when they've flown the nest. (that's how it happened for me) Sure do hope that I'll get to play with you again at a monthly craft session in Fairlawn......if not, wishing you all the best!

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  14. ♡♡♡
    Kudos to you for making a change. If your heart isn't into something, then why do it? You gotta listen to your gut. Please know that you will be missed.

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  15. Wida... ditto all the "atta girls" but, as a new "friend" I am going to miss you so much... your fresh, talented, funny, unique-ness. Please know that your visits have been so appreciated... Damn it... does this mean I don't have a chance to make the TOP Ten Wida list for 2015? You know I'm LOL, but a bit misty, too... my door is always open...
    =] Michele

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  16. You go girl! I know you won't give up your art. That is in your heart. The stress of if all takes away from the joy of creating. Now you can work at your own pace and enjoy the adventure of being a Mom. School, sports and growing up is all a wonderful thing to enjoy while it is happening. Don't miss a day of it. Keep your art flowing in new places. I am happy for you and know we will see you again along the internet way as time goes by. Bless you and keep you happy and well.

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  17. I will miss your posts Wida. I can relate to what you are going through and I wish you nothing but happiness:)

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  18. We will miss you! I loved your humor and your wonderful projects!!! Many hugs to you!!!

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  19. Will miss you, Wida. I know what you are talking about. Enjoy the time with your family and your four beautiful kids. Best wishes.

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  20. Hard decisions stink sometimes. Do pop in and surprise us every once in a while....Please.
    You are so loved... by many!

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  21. Sorry to see you are stopping blogging. Wishing you and your family well. I hope you will let the blog stay accessible for a while so we can revisit past blog posts. Ditto about popping in and surprise folks when you have a chance. Will miss you posts at Hero Arts blog

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  22. Well, little did I know how close to home I was hitting with the "why am I doing this???" talk we had a few months ago? Along with you, I too am pretty near dropping the whole blog thing, too. BUT, this does not mean you're allowed to stop coming to stamp with us on Saturdays!!!!!!!!!!!! :) Best wishes.... hope to see you (in person!) again, soon!

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  23. I would trade my blog for kids...even just one...in a heartbeat, Wida. Enjoy every moment with those precious little ones. I hope you'll stay in touch. And, like Kim said, come visit us in Colorado :) We miss you!

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  24. Best wishes! I will miss seeing your creations.

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  25. Gosh, I'm really going to miss your posts... Especially the ones that honestly say what I'm always thinking! The highlighter thing? Totally me too! Best wishes Wida!!

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  26. I discovered this hobby after my kids were grown, thankfully. There would never have been time for a full time job, kids and stamping. Stamping will wait; the years with the children won't. Sometimes it feels like our "me" gets lost while raising a family ... but you will never regret the time you spend with them and the things you do for them. Best wishes!!

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  27. I could tell this was where you were going, Wida, but it was still hard to read from a selfish level because you provided so much design inspiration to your bloggie friends and we will miss you for that. But, just as Judy says above, you are young and it is right and good that family and your career come first and if something has to give, it should be your blog. I could never have done this when I was where you are in the journey, with a new home, a new job, a husband, and four little ones!!

    A card hobby blog and all that it entails is an amazing experience, but it is also a huge time suck, so I fully understand. The wonderful thing about blogging is that you can pick it up again years from now, in whatever form that will be from a technological standpoint. So I hope you will think of this as only a window that is closing, because the Blogland door will always be open for you to return when the time is right! I wish you all the best and know that you will excel at all the other facets of your beautiful life!! Feel free to drop by whenever you can! Hugs, Darnell

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  28. My best wishes, thoughts and prayers are with you Wida. I will miss viewing the products of your unique approach to cardmaking, but I understand your decision to let something go, so room for something else is made. My children are both in their 30's now and so I know those childhood years that really consume your life are actually a very brief time period. Here's to you making the wise decision to "be there" for all those moments that create so many memories.

    I, too, hope that you will at some point in your life post again. There's just something very special about you and your work. Thanks for all the good memories you have created for me! With love - Robin

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  29. Oh I'm sad Wida, as I imagine so many in blogland are. I have enjoyed your blog for the short time I have been in the card making community. I was kind of just getting started, as you were winding down. I still remember how thrilled I was when you mentioned me on your blog! That totally made my year! If your heart is not in it anymore, than it means there are different perhaps bigger and better things on the horizon for you. I wish you joy in all that you do! (hugs)

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  30. What a hard decision for you to make but a completely understandable one. Yes, your final posted card is the essence of Wida and why we love your style.

    Good luck to you and your family, priorities do change, and that isn't a bad thing.

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  31. I think that, while this is hard, you will be happier. We all have to find our "happy" and, I must say, I admire you very much for being true to YOU and what is most important for you now. Best of luck, love, and hugs!

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  32. oh Wida - I am very sad to hear you decided to end your blog. Though, know that I am very happy and lucky to have met you in person and got the chance to know you on a more personal level. I am sure we will continue to communicate and chat, I do enjoy those too. I will miss your cards and projects, thank you for sharing them with us :) HUGS CS

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  33. Wida, so sad to see you going. You are oneof the original blogsI started following thru Feedly whenzi first got my ipad. I have loved watching and enjoying your posts but can also understand where you are coming from. I sincerly hope all goes well for you and that maybe there will be a time in the future that we will see and hear from you again. Your a very talented young lady, hold your head high and know you are and we all truly appreciated your talent.

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  34. I'm sure your babies will be so happy to have more "mommy" time! We will miss you and your quirky style and your wittiness. Your blog was always such an enjoyable read. Much happiness in the years to come...

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  35. Wida, your decision is the best for you and family. Wishing you the best & your days will be filled with love, joy and happiness. Thank you for sharing your heart and inspare all of us, your readers. You are amazing!

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  36. Wida, what an eloquent post - I applaud your bravery in "baring your soul". May I take this opportunity to wish you a more peaceful time and thank you for all the incredible inspiration you have triggered in me. Take care and again, I wish you every success :-)

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  37. Good for you, Wida! I always love your style & fresh designs. I wish you all the best with your family and job. Take good care!
    Hugs from Denmark

    Pia

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  38. Oh, Wida, I'm so sad to read this! I truly enjoy visiting your blog (& am guilty of getting busy and not being able to see every post -- but I don't let that stop me from coming when I can.) I'm sorry you've struggled so much with this and the changes that have happened recently in your life! Wishing you all the best, my friend!

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  39. Aww...Wida, I can't lie...I'm soooo sad. :( Know that I always have and always will LOVE you and your creations!
    I can't highlight something in orange then yellow, either. I get it. You know what is right in your heart. As much as I'll miss you, I understand, completely. Take good care and I wish you and your family nothing but the best! Hugs <3

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  40. I've loved seeing your beautiful work on your awesome blog!! You've accomplished so much!! I only blog in my head, and not even everyday!! ;) Happy you are home! Take time to relax and enjoy those sweet kiddos! xo Angela

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  41. I can only imagine how difficult this post must have been to write, Wida, and even more this decision. However, I'm hoping making it will lift the load off your shoulders. You've got your head and heart in the right place! I have loved your blog since I signed up! I promised I'd stay and I did! LOL Your talent and love for card making will live on with all your beautiful work that inspired so many of us. All the best to you! ox

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  42. I will miss you. I love your ideas and your creations. However, when you stop creating for yourself and it isn't fun anymore, you need to step back and figure out why. I hope that creating for yourself again will make it fun and you will be able to enjoy it again. Best of luck. We will miss you....

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  43. What you are doing is absolutely right for you...hard but do whats best for your life and the happiness of your family. I will miss your creations but understand your decision . Wishing you a happy and peaceful future.

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  44. I always loved your posts and will miss them very much, but 100% understand how you feel. It is NOT easy to run a blog!! You are doing the right thing!!

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  45. I'm sorry to hear about this, but you have to do what feels good for you. I have loved reading your posts and seeing your cards, you are an inspiration and a designer I look up to. I'll miss seeing what you created but I wish you all the best and I hope you'll find what you are looking for!

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  46. I will miss your blog - but I understand that sometimes there is just too much going on and something has to go! I hope you will continue to create in your personal time and enjoy it without all the commitments!! Thanks for inspiring us with your talents! Best Wishes!

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  47. I do so hope this is not goodbye, but see you later! I always marvelled at how much you managed to accomplish. You are obviously very driven and expect so much of yourself - you definitely exceeded all of our expectations. It has been so much fun watching you develop over the last few years - I can remember when you said you didn't think you had a recognisable style - and then you did! And we all loved it! I love your creativity and your sense of humour and will miss your blog and your gorgeous edgy cards! Wishing you all the best with your family and job and take care of yourself! hugs

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  48. Hi Wida, I have been mulling over this post since I first read it. First, kudos to you for following your heart! I have loved watching your card making style evolve and reading your heartfelt posts. Second, I echo your thoughts about blogging. I failed to renew my web hosting service last month and just realized yesterday that my blog no longer exists. I thought I would feel some sadness but actually it's more like relief. It became this thing that I "should" do instead of wanting to do.

    Thanks for all of your contributions to our little paper crafting community & I wish you all the best! Hopefully we'll see you back here when the time is right.

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  49. Wishing you all the very best, Wida. Your designs have been such an inspiration to so many! I'll miss you and your creations!

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  50. Wida, Wida, Wida. I'm happy for you and sad for us. Please don't be a stranger and drop me a message now and then. And leave this post up so I can come back and read it and remember all the "Wida-isms". Take care, sweetie! Love ya! xo

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  51. Hugs to you. Sorry I am so late to be reading this. I will miss your blog. What you have done is really hard, and I respect the courage you have shown in taking this step to focus on what is important to you. Good luck, and visit whenever you get bored.

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  52. Wait, what?!? Where have I been? OBVIOUSLY way too far behind on stopping by, it seems! The unread posts in my reader really bothered me too, which is why I stopped using it about a year ago. The good thing is that it takes the pressure off (and those numbers, the darn numbers of unread posts, which scream "you are totally failing with keeping up on things") but that bad thing is that my visits are very haphazard and random. I hear everything you say. This blogging thing is SO HARD to do with young children. I can't imagine how to manage it with a job. Non bloggers do look at me strangely when they ask what I do all day. It's just so hard to convey if you haven't walked the walk yourself. You have. You've done it. You've been successful. You've met your goals. And now you're moving on. And that's OK. It's really hard for me to see you go, however. I LOVE YOUR STYLE. You have such a unique voice in our blogging community. You were one of my first favorites when I started blogging. You are still a favorite, that's why I picked you for the Fusion anniversary celebration. You will always be in my blogging heart, Wida. Love you!!! : )

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  53. Wait, How did I miss this when I follow you on Bloglovin?? Guess I was busy too huh? I will miss seeing your creations, they are so unique and wonderful like you. I miss you Wida! keep in touch and every now and again pop a card on here to surprise us.

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  54. I love your precious heart and unique, inquisitive mind. I will miss you, surely. I only saw this post now, after I noticed that you disappeared from Facebook as well. I rarely ever have the time to check out blogs any more. something you wrote that you can relate to. I applaud your courage to step away and gain perspective. It's not easy. Damn, it's the hardest thing I did in years myself. I still can't bring myself to closing my blog for good. Your amazing work aside, I will miss seeing you in my FB feed most, your beautiful kiddos, your radiating personality shining through and giving me reasons to smile while I have my morning coffee. Whatever you do, be happy. Hugs, dear crafty friend.

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  55. Ditto to just about everything you said (except having 4 kids!). Have fun. Come back and visit if you ever want to. And happy birthday!

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  56. So sad to read this Wida. You have been an inspiration to me. I hope you find some balance and still sqeeze a few in here and there. I know your busy mind will need to have control of your hands again. Ill be dreaming and waiting for your return. Ive never been good at letting go. You included. I want in on the walking dead chat with tracey!! Lol

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  59. OH Wida--- I'm so sorry I didn't see this post until NOW! I knew you stopped the DT with us but didn't know you stopped all together! I totally understand and love you even more for taking a step down to focus on family/work/etc. <3 I also love you more because I can't highlight in a different color after I started in one! LOL!

    THANKS for stopping by my blog----- I hope you will stop by again soon! And I hope you will be able to find time and pleasure in crafting/posting again <3 LOVE LOVE LOVE YA! <3

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